i'm denise, currently 21, ushering in the largest church in Singapore.. loving the people as well as the atmosphere there. love pink, cosplaying, taking pictures, watching movies, shopping and of cause spending time with dear!
hye there...here i am bloggin again...well, a lot of things have happened...both at work and at home...that is just too overwhelming for me..firstly..let me start off at work bah...more easier to begin with..haa...firstly i'm not really happy with the way my boss is doing stuff...he's hardly in the office, and hardly does any coaching for the new fars...i mean the production is really low for the past few months...and like hardly anyone comes in these few weeks and months...ever since wendy and four other fars left...it's been like ghost town...and very little submissions too...and so bored in office...and still considering whether to change job..because not much challenges, and job prospects?but i know now isn't the right time right?but anyway, let's begin..
on thursday i found my computer on, and like someone touched the computer, cause a program to clean up my C drive is running..and my boss is the only one in...so i guess that he was the one that touched my computer, and deleted stuff from my computer...soon after,he called me into his room..and told me got unauthorized stuff that i installed without his permission, and stuff...said i deserve a pay cut, and e report i did wasn't good..and that i wasn't thinking and stuff...i mean you did not tell me how you want the report to be done, i figured it on my own leh...with the help of irene lah...my colleague...so sent it to my boss before i left for the day...than he said i should be sacked, because he's trying to groom me to be a professional secretary and all those krap, but i'm not learning and stuffs....still like a little girl and stuff...say getting married soon, must grow up and all those krap...pls...i don need all these kind of prep talk..it bores me?seriously...i mean when you were away for like 2 weeks..i was here supporting the branch..and taking all e bull-shit...and you say i deserve a pay cut, and to be sacked?if i was being sacked, doesn't make a difference anyways..synergy will close shop anyway, with the man-power so little...and the boss is a jerk...it's so irritating, seriously...like OMG!....so i cleared up all the unnecessary stuffs in my pc, and yea..did my work...i mean re-do the report that my boss wasn't pleased with...
i wasn't really happy with what my boss said...i mean you're hardly in office nowadays, cause you're either overseas, or having client meetings?and you said i deserve a pay cut, and to be sacked?because i install unauthorized software into the PC, and the report i gave you did not meet your expectations?what kind of reasons are those?i worked my ass off to give you that report okay...didn't even go out to have a 1 hour lunch, but a 30 mins one, because i was rushing the stupid darn report...and you tell me i should be sacked?because i'm not growing up, or learning?BECAUSE YOU'RE ALWAYS NOT IN THE OFFICE?how m i supposed to learn?USE YOUR BRAIN BOSS!you are not in the office, to monitor my work, and what your advisers are doing..whether they're bringing in sales, or come into office to get free air-con...i mean to slack or whatever lah...the production is seriously low, after they left...and my boss isn't doing anything to push up the sales?especially when the CRT is coming up, in a few weeks or months time...so i guess only my boss would be going?he's e only one who hit the CRT...i suppose..so whatever...what a lousy boss you are... boooo.... anyway, if he wants to sack me, by all means...i do not wish to be working under a boss that doesn't have any brains... :)
another problem is with my family...cause my 21st birthday is coming up soon, like on 18th July...and having a party at my house la...in e evening time...at first my parents said my dad would be paying...like half la...than after that they said i'm paying full..like $400...cause they found out i'm paying $300 monthly for my personal trainer..which they think is dumb la...cause waste money, when i can train myself and all those..but it's an investment, into your health, as well as well-being...i wanna keep fit, i do not want to be those of those plus sized ladies walking around...and still eating like there's no tomorrow...i don't want that..it's not my style...seriously...if i can afford to pay e extra cash, to make myself look prettier, and fit for my dear, and to make myself feel good..why not?no harm what...correct?but i guess they won't get it...as long as it's money... :( that was why i cried on my dear's shoulder on friday night..when we were out..i was on leave...hee... cause had bible study on thursday..reached home about 12??hhee...cousin fetched me home...yeap...that day my bf also passed his IPPT..hee..which is good news, meaning he doesn't need to go RT anymore..yahoo! ya la...so i was quite sad, because they did not made true their deal...and stuff...so yeap...will make sure that my younger brother pays for everything on his 21st birthday..hee...i'm just so angry and pissed about it...cause you told me that you were paying half, and now i have to pay full?including my birthday cake???like what kind of krap is that?anyway, that's it for me..see ya peeps soon! :)
xx signed off at 9:20 PM
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
cRoSs RoAdS~!
hi there peeps...right now, i'm considering whether to have a career switch, or maybe a job switch?because the job that i'm working right now, does not give me the fulfilment that i need la..and e pay is lower my expectations. i mean i asked my boss for a pay increment in May in the early June..because i joined Synergy in Jan 2008, so after 1 year, i'm entitled to a pay increment mah...and my ex boss din even mention anything about it..which is v frustrating?i mean i'm working here for a year, and i have done so many important as well as unimportant things for you guys....and you guys just keep quiet?and 'pretend' to be busy in your room...sending out e-mails, attending client meetings, going on holidays and stuff...i mean while you guys are enjoying or clinching a deal outside, i 'm busy working in the office...getting all the krap, and nonsense from company pple as well as fars...and you guys just forget that i've been here for a year, 365 freaking days?are you guys even human?like seriously?
i mean, sometimes those fars can be really unreasonable and frustrating...like from little things from disturbing you when you're busy, or rushing a report or huge things like how to do online sqs, and printing from your home printer...and helping you via the phone, because you're lazy to come down to office to do the quotation...i mean, is it that hard to take a train, and come down to office, where there are pple to help you and stuff?and now that wendy and 4 other fars have left...there's only one branch partner, and two branch managers...and so freddie has come up with a duty rooster..as to who is coming in on which days to sign cases from 9am to 12pm...but it's like got one manager, madeline...everytime she's on duty, she will come like about 10am or something like that..cause the cut-off time for the investment is 10.30am...so after she signs, i have to remove the labels, and scan ma...and take lift up to 30th floor to submit la...so i'll give myself about 30 mins allowance?to make sure that i can make it...and stuff..so if she comes in at 10am, the trade will not be able to be through on that day...which is bad la...and the adviser will blame me, like why the trade din go through and stuff....and it's like got a few incidents, whereby she told freddie, she won't be coming in becoz of blah and blah..and than freddie will tell me something else and stuff...which reflects very badly on her, beause she's a manager mah...and she shouldn't have this attitude?like seriously...it's very bad...and it's like a bo chap character , or something along that line?
i mean if there are no managers from my branch to sign off cases..have to find other managers from other branches..and they might not be willing to sign off all the documents, cause some in-house documents have to be seen by the own manager, for verification purposes and stuff...and it's very pai sei to keep finding managers on the different levels...and some managers hardly come in the morning...which is a very crucial time for investments and insurance...yeah..that' s e trouble when your managers have a bo chap attitude...which i sometimes hate...cause you have to go around looking for managers to sign...yeahh...
i did not feedback to my boss, because i do not want to make her look bad, or whatever...but if it comes to a day whereby i can no longer tahan, than maybe?hee...yeapp..i mean feedback what...nothing wrong what...haa...i'm not an evil girl you noe...hee...
i mean it's not that i have anything against my bosses, or the pple working in my branch...but it's just that, some of their attitudes really suck a lot...and it really gets on my nerves at times? i know now isn't the right time to be changing jobs, or job-hopping..but this job does not gives my fulfillment, or challenges?i mean it's so mundane and boring...and they hardly come into office any-more...so the office is rather empty for months and stuff...which i hate...so quiet and stuff...no cases..sho bored in office...yeap..so i'm still deciding whether or not to quit?hope i can get an answer from God soon...argh... that will be all for now...see ya guys!
xx signed off at 9:41 AM
Sunday, June 14, 2009
hIhI!
anyway..hi there...sry again for not blogging...these few days have been hell for me...especially in work and stuff...it's like the office is so darn empty...and my boss is like hardly in the office too...so it's kinda like a ghost town after wendy and 4 other FARS left...very quiet, not much sales etc...and not much e-mails too...i was literally so darn bored...felt like going home to sleep the day away...seriously...so it's like i'll always try to leave at 6pm..no pt doing OT, cause there's nothing much to do anyway..ya lo...then it's like my boss was seriously unreasonable...cause he requested for the manager login for Navigator like last wed...so i called and requested la...than he asked me to follow up, and to make sure that he gets it by last thursday..cause he was flying off on Friday..which he did not convey that message to me..i knew it through one of the FARs, Jess...i mean i'm ur secretary..and you don't even tell me that you're flying off, until the night before?what if there are urgent things to be settled like before you fly?then wait till you come back?i mean like hello?what m i here for than? like wth?
so he wanted the manager login like before he flew off, which was on 12th June...in the morning...i already called the previous week on Wed, which was 3rd June...that was when he asked me to request for him...so okay lo...waited for them to send lo...than on wed he asked me to call and request again..because no mailer came and stuff...so okay lo...than now than he tell me that he flying off on Friday, and that he needs it latest by Thursday..i mean i'm no superwoman okay..you can't expect things to go your way and stuff...so okay lo...i kept calling Navigator to make sure that they process the request...than they keep telling me latest is Friday after 12.30pm...so okay lo...than coz he had a client meeting on Wed until 4pm..so he ask me to settle lo...then after that i keep calling up the number, to check how's e progress...than after tat e person said the leader wans to call freddie, but dono what is the right time...so i called n sms-ed him lo...than coz he din reply,coz in the meeting..than after that he called..but connection very bad and stuff...
than after that he kept calling lo..and stuff...and i kept calling NVG too...than after tat he told me that the person Norman told him that the mailer was ready...ask me to go down and collect...so i took a cab down lo...it was already like gonna be 6pm..the person told me they close at 5.45pm...so i took fred, and he say nevermind..just go down and collect...then the receptionist told me that it wasn't ready...like wth..luckily my boss said he would pay for e cab fare?so i was negotiating with them la...and called freddie too...than norman told me that he did not tell him that it was ready...and that could come down to collect...norman told him that the latest would be friday after 12.30pm..and e faster way would be to collect by hand...i'm like, i wasted my time, effort and money in coming here..argh...i was so mad...so just did the necessary stuffs..and left at 6pm plus...called my bf, but he did not answer...cause maybe walking to e gym?for body combat..which i registered for him...in e end was body jam..haa...saw him at e gym working out...thought he went home..hee...ya lo...attended yoga...and stuff...
received an sms and an e-mail from my boss explaining that my follow-up was bad and stuff..keep reminded me to get the login id and pw by thursday..and than ask me why i did not follow up properly...why when the mailer did not come on monday or latest tuesday..why i did not call and follow-up..must wait for him to say, and rush and stuff...firstly u din even tell me you were flyin off, and secondly you wan me to be superwoman...not e first time also...keep rubbing the fact that i asked for a pay increment and stuff like that..and e fact that i did not copy e two documents and just went off...firstly i was busy on friday, and it was placed on the big table there...i mean if you wan someone to do something, you put on the table or something right?and i was rushing off to my bible study..it's equally important as work okay...and i do not want to be late...in meeting my bf..hee... :)ya lor...
then yest i did not serve..cause was celebrity weekend...hee...so many celebs were coming..liu geng hong, FIR, and many more...went to e live house before service @ 2pm..had lunch w mom at lot 1 at choa chu kang..cause dad want to visit his mom at CCK...so went there eat...eat at kobayashi..the food sucked..so unlike the picture...than shopped around lo...saw a pair of cute boots at BKG, wanted to try it on, but mom don't allow..sad...than after that went to toilet before heading off to church..hee...met edwin at level 5...my usher leader called, and asked if i want to serve..cause not enough man-power..when i already told him on Thursday that i want to fellowship w cell, and to enjoy the performances mah....what's e pt right?than went down to lvl 4 to attend Live House..it was so crowded but awesome..liu geng hong, vivi and FIR were there...took pictures and stuff...had faye's autograph too...than met a few of them at lvl 4..before heading down to lvl 1 to wait for some more pple...after that chatted for a while, before taking e stairs down to B4..cause waited so long for e lift to come...service was a BLAST! so many celebs came...liu geng hong, vaness wu, nu nai, ou de yang, FIR, and other artistes...if i had charged my camera, it would have been okay..haizx...bad planning...than after that hung out w cell members at e coffee shop..ate ban mian...than walked around at Jurong Point...before heading home..they were chilling @ starbucks...but don't want to stay up too late...so went off w guo lei..hee...
so today going to cousin's house..for a gathering...dear said not meeting, so rest @ home lo...walked CSI, had lunch and slacked..hee...than headed off to e house at about 5pm?they had two levels...did renovation...yeah...than had dinner..and watched memoirs of a geisha..it's an interesting show..but did not watch e full show...cause went up to join the cousins in playing rock band...it was so fun...feel like getting for PS3?maybe persuade my dad to buy?haa...then continued watched e show on CH5..it's actually quite a nice show...anyways that's it for me now..see ya guys! :)
xx signed off at 12:21 AM
Tuesday, June 02, 2009
gYm!
hye there..been a while since i posted..anyway...i started my personal trainer programme which i stopped a few months back..because i din have enough money and stuff..anyway, my female trainer went over to China Square..and it's a bit far from my work-place..so i asked her to find me another trainer...it's a guy trainer..name is kurami...he's really buff and stuff...his training was much more intense than my female trainer..yeah...i guess he wants me to buff up, and to have muscles and stuff...the first training was a bit intense...he tried to change my posture and stuff...cause i always hunch back and stuff..which is really bad for my posture,and back...yeah...so he always try to straighten my back while doing the exercises...which is good la...i need to change my posture...didn't have much muscles aches the day after..probably not that intense, and straining on the muscles i suppose?went for yoga on Wed..yeah...dear accompanied me...he can do some poses so much better than me..i felt e competition..haa...guess i strained my muscles too much?next day thighs got muscles aches..which was kind of painful?haa...when walking, painful lah..sadd...
than on friday went for bible study...led by Dr Kong Hee...haa..it was really interesting la..i mean he went into depth, into every scripture and the definition and stuff...saw my high school crush..shane..he was serving as Usher in SOT...cool right?he looked buff and stuff..hee...than after that went to meet dear at ORQ(One Raffles Quay)..he's doing OT there...took cab with him to my house..cause he's staying over..haa...cause on Sat is our 2 yr anniversary..hee...cause we will be out e whole day..and he promised me he would be stayin over..reached home about midnight?so showered, use a bit of computer...than slept loh..really tired...haa...the weather was really hot too...humid lah i guess...
than on Sat cycled to West Coast...but rained along e way..so find shelter @ west coast park loh...was drenched by the time we reached West Coast Mcdonalds...should have brought towel or something like that...but luckily managed to make it in time lah..managed to eat my hash brown..yummy!so long never eat liao...haa...than after eating..took some pictures loh..have been uploaded onto Facebook...and than cycled around west coast park loh..played @ e playground, and took pictures and stuff...looked at the ships, boats and many other stuff lah...than cycled home loh..showered..and prepared to head off to Plaza Singapura to collect our custom made rings, and ferr some shopping...haa...took 175...reached there about 3pm plus..so went to collect our rings..before eating at secret recipe...haa..e food was really yummy...than went over to sembawang music centre...and shopped around loh..tried on some clothes at NET, but dear say not nice..hee...than went to yamaha to look at muscial instruments, as well as some scores...haa...dear than wanted to buy a pick holder, for his guitar..but sandy told him that peninsula plaza got cheaper, and thinner and stuff..so okay loh..decided to go over there to see loh..in e end was shopping centre..so walked over loh...the peninsula plaza was so stinko...cause alot of malays mah..seriously..could hardly breathe?so quickly left e place, and went to e shopping centre...found e place..but the person selling it for like $5?so dear said he don wanna buy...say buy from the yamaha there..$2..cheaper..so asked him whether wanna go over to plaza singapura...but he say not urgent...so we just walked to funan loh..to have dinner...than i changed to my new heels, that i bought @ Charles and keith...but after a while very painful...cause it's covered..so sat somewhere, to change the heels, and to massage my legs..haa...than continued walking to the bus-stop..yeh...than e guy who was sitting w us right..kept staring @ me..in a very weird way..than we took pictures again...haa...luckily his bus came...and i was whew..FINALLY..haa...was so tired sia...so after went home..showered, and like collapsed into bed...haa...too tired le bah..haa..
so sunday decided to meet parents for lunch..cause too tired le..suppposed to go for service at expo..but body too tired...wore the red heels again..haa...huge mistake..wuahaha..painful cause stood too long while queuing for the $1 goodie bag...the lady in front of me kept staring at me.dono ferr what?than after went for some more shopping...bought bubble tea, and enquired about the coloured contacts @ Spectacle Hut. than realised that left the goodie bag at long john silvers...so went back and got it back lohh..and went home..than showered..than mom said go DK to get e coloured contacts...yeah...so okay loh...blow dried hair before going off...than she kept nagging about e personal trainer stuff...like i don need a trainer...go gym just for running etc...i mean the main purpose of getting a trainer is to be fit, be healthy, and to increase my fitness level and stuff...and to lose weight, but that will come later..yeah...finally ordered the coloured contacts le...the person said by wed or thursday will arrive...haa...than after that ordered dinner..and walked around while waiting for the food to be cooked and stuff...bought kaya from one of the confectionary shops...go home and try etc...hee...than went home loh...after went home, slept for a while..was too tired le bah...woke up at 8.30pm to have dinner...than after that slept at about 11...very sleepy...dono why..maybe cycled too much on Saturday bah..
then yesterday was super tired...din do much work cause my trial version of the Microsoft Office 2007 was up, and have to re-install..take so much time..luckily my boss wasn't in, so didn't know that i was slacking my day..haa...left office at about 6.30pm..coz wanna go home, and recuperate..hee...slept kinda early..like about 11?dear was doing OT mah...so yeah...he din call me back after that...too tired, and fell asleep...can't blame him..he has been doing OT for about 4 days le...thursday, fri, sun and mon..poor poor dear...had a super duper long sleep, and a pretty good one at that too..wuahaha...
than today had gym loh...work was pretty mundane, BORING, and slacking...the gym session was pretty tough..did many intense exercises and stuff..like krunches, worked on my abs, and my legs, as well as my posture..yeah...than went 2 hv dinner, and went back home...slept about 12 like that...alrights...that's it for me now...tmrw gg yoga, thursday gym,and friday bs song of solomon at Expo Hall 1 with Dr Kong..it's gonna be great.i'm pretty sure i'm gonna have muscles aches after today's session..wonder how i'm gonna survive??whew.. God help me plse... :)
